Happy Friggin' Holidays!

Maybe it is the holidays that have me feeling sour, but lately I feel like crawling into a hole and not coming out until spring.

I feel like I am under so much pressure from school, work, the band, and my boyfriend, that I would love to just pack up and leave it all behind (I would have to bring my cat with me, of course) and start over. One of the reasons is I am an introvert. It stresses and wears me out to have to be nice and chipper all the time to total strangers. Then, when it comes time to hang out with loved ones, I am a total bitch and anti-social. Most mornings I do not want to get out of bed. Then I think to myself, "At least I have a bed to get out of," and that helps. Then I start thinking more Republican and sometimes think to myself, "Screw everyone else. It is their own problem they don't even have a bed to get out of. They have the ability to get a job and buy their own bed to get out of!" Then I hate myself for thinking that. It makes me sick to think that way.

I have always had this desire to save the world, and then I remember that charity begins at home. It bums me out that I do not make enough money to fulfill all the wishes on my adopt-a-family list, yet. I believe, though, that by reaching out to one's community and helping a few families who are no different than mine and providing presents along with a holiday meal for these families, that maybe, when the kids and their parents open their presents this Christmas morning and they get everything they asked for, they will want to "pay it forward," when they realize that total strangers, their fellow man, cares about them and is thinking about them this holiday season.
That is how to save the world.